The Inner Explorer
Published · ISBN : 9798365306103
Presentation
Why have you become the person you are today? Through the honest account of his own inner journey, Guy Wathieu explores the origins of personality, conditioning, body memory, midlife crisis, forgiveness and the Enneagram. This book does not seek to confine you within a fixed definition. It sheds light on what may still be shaping your reactions and choices. By following the author’s path, you are invited to reconnect with your inner child, move beyond the automatic defences of the ego and draw closer to the unique being life is calling you to embody.
Excerpt
That said by way of preamble, my strengths and weaknesses were of course not in balance. And even if they had been, subjectively, there is always a way of seeing the glass as half empty or half full. In my case, and this very early on in my professional career, my inner malaise was transferred to my hierarchy, which, in my opinion, did not give me enough recognition. In fact, the recognition I didn't give myself because, from the moment I was born, I didn't feel recognised. Even though the company I worked for had financed my second Master's degree, appointed me group leader and provided me with all the continuing training I needed, I felt isolated and my malaise grew. Putting less energy into my daily tasks, seeing no exciting prospects, I became bored and demotivated, without necessarily showing it.
Outside work, I looked for solutions, embarked on a « quest for meaning » and considered a career change to give me a new lease of life. I didn't envisage this change in the engineering field because my previous change of employer hadn't brought me the recognition I'd been hoping for. As one of my main character traits is never to ask for help, I created a parallel life for myself without the help of my company and acted as if everything was fine. I knew that my values and needs for fulfilment had changed, but I didn't know what I really wanted. So, I lived in a very dissociative way: on the professional side, I remained the rational, mental, analytical executive and, on the private side, I concentrated on the spiritual, immaterial, subtle life... In any case, I didn't know a term to describe my desire at the time. Today, I would simply call it an aligned life. I'll come back to this later.